What do you do, when its broken
When your face feels warm
And your eyes start to burn
What do you do when your world get shaken

What do you do when you cant reach out
When every step is you take falls wrong
And you are along listening to a sad song
What do you do when all you are left with is doubt

What do you do when you lie down alone to sleep
When the one you love, is the one who is gone
And she takes away the only friend you had
What do you do when you are the only one hearing your breathe

Is there anyone to whom i can alight
Is there anyone who can lift me up when shy
IS there anyone who belives i am right
Is there anyone of likes the way i cry

In me,
There is fear and anger inside me
In me,
There is despair and uncertainty
In me,
There is sadness and there is pain

I bear responsibility to losiing the best thing i ever had -
Black on white , my name is Untitled – Notepad

A people have problems about the desire being pitted and critiqued against the Galaxy S on the HTC Desire. Both phones have pros and cons and invariably all threads turn into flame wars with each contingency coming in full support for the phone they like/support. After reading reviews and seeing enough videos, i finally got the change to go and demo these two devices. Here are my reactions :

1. Galaxy S has a really ugly design, aesthetically this phone is a piece of cheap plastic. Sorry to be harsh, but thats the truth. it looks like the iPhone but feel wise its nothing like it (its worse). So feel wise, this device definitely takes a hit. The Desire on the other hand is smooth. Love the feel of the phone, it feels like a phone!
WIN : Desire

2. I did not notice a lag while swiping through the screens. The Touchwiz 3.0 UI is ordinary to say the least.If i buy it i would definitely look to replace it. The Sense UI is better, but honestly i would prefer stick android.
WIN : Desire Sense UI (better of two devils)

3. Performance : This is where the device scores, its a beast yes. Applications run fast and smooth. While the desire was fast, it was always feel behind a few seconds.
WIN : Galaxy S

4. Texting : I text a LOT. I have a Samsung Corby pro and this device is amazing for heavy texting! While both the desire and galaxy have on screen keyboard, i did not find it easy to type on galaxy s, despite the unique swype method. Ergonomically it was painful to hold the phone in one hand like a slate and swipe my index finger to type texts. i prefer to hold my device like a gamepad and text with my thumbs. The desire fits very comfortably and as many reviews have said, it has one of the best on screen keypads around
WIN : Desire

5. Gaming : Galaxy all the way. Noticeable difference, hell yes. Who wants to play games on phones? I DO! One thing i would like to compare is the gaming comparison with iPhone 3Gs. The game that i played was i think not on the iPhone so i could only test between these two devices and the performance on Galaxy S felt much better.
WIN: Galaxy S

So here is where i am confused. The two most important things for me is texting and gaming. Desire wins in texting , Galaxy wins in gaming. however if the desire is on par or better in gaming as compared to the iPhone/iTouch then i am willing to settle

Being in my second year of college, i certainly expected more out myself. I thought i would be spreading my wings in different directions in life and going crazy. Instead I am tied to my chair in a 9to5 college where the only thing that is being trained to fly is my imagination. Its so ironical that people feel Design Colleges are supposed to be a battlefield where your imagination clashes with reality and run wild galloping and conquering the unknown. Is it weird then, that feel stuck in a cog machine being ground in monotony? Its been a while since i lived my live without fear, burden and the blanket of suffocation. Without thinking about that semi-solid platform and taking a leap of faith.

I stand in the mirror and I find myself Lost in my life. I wish i could step on a plane crash land on a remote island and understand myself better. I want to break free. Like someone once said, when you get addicted to drugs – blaming the drug or the creator of the drug is pointless

Feeling lost in life, I want to travel and be free like a bird

All credits to elsakawai™ for the photograph

Since our existence we have unraveled mysteries spanning few years before and few years after. And with each year we continue this bi-directional growth of discovering the unknown. This phenomenon can be compared with Bilinear Interpolation. In simplest terms, If we are to assume our existence with respect to time is somewhere on the horizontal X-axis, then we progress each year in both the negative as well as the positive direction.

Coming back to our human mind, Who controls the human brain? Doesn’t our brain control the interaction between various body parts. A common example, If we wish to lift our arm – we tell our brain that we want to lift our arm, which triggers nerves and activates muscles to generate a moment in our arm, to which our eyes register and sends a notification to our brain that the arm moved in a direction. The brain then inspects this direction and tally’s it to a previously trained colloquial terminology called UP. So, our arm moved up. Its kind of is a full circle originating at the brain and coming back to it. If our arm were to move down and our eyes registered the opposite movement, imagine how we would be living today.

Now lets talk about a highly debatable organ, much loathed by the brain, as it tried to steal its thunder. I am talking about the heart. Over centuries this debate has been dragged on. Does the heart ‘think’ ? Is it capable of influencing actions and decisions of our brain? Is our heart our soul? Is it our conscience? Scientifically, its a slave to the brain, providing it the basic necessity of blood. The relationship is highly interesting though and it will reveal a common link to lots of relationships both superficial and natural. The brain is made up of tissues and other biological components that like every other organ needs blood. The brain however does not produce blood. The heart functions to produce blood, independent of the brain at least on a voluntary level. Involuntarily the brain maybe controlling that too, maybe the brain does secretly produce blood in a sense.
We dont know what the brain is capable of involuntarily. Maybe its beyond our control, but then we would have to define ‘control’ for that. So by stating what is not true we are trying prove a something false. So if it did control everything, why would it let the body deteriorate with diseases? Maybe it shares a symbiotic relation with another organ, maybe the heart.

When in a dilemma, or a choice we often say that we can listen to either our heart or our mind. Almost often they are different. Perhaps another reason to disbelieve the supreme authority of the brain. Now what if we were able to artificially influence the brain. Our brains would be working to develop a means to counter itself. Kind of a paradox situation? Will our brains allow us to ever do that? Or is it not under our brain’s capacity to do so. Is it why we still dont know about the existence of the universe? Why does a brain end its own life? Why do we commit suicide?

The author wishes to convey that he is depressed and of highly unstable mind. Here is wishing him a fast recovery and hope he feels better soon

Lets take a look at how most of these viruses/trojans work.

1. It usually begins by a machine getting infected via the internet (cracks, keys, porn dialers, exes etc)
2. Upon inserting the USB drive in a infected machine, the virus copies itself to the USB drive(in a sstem hidden folder) and overwrites autorun.inf with a malicious one (which will auto execute the virus)
3. When unplugged and plugged into a fresh machine, Autorun.inf is called by Windows(yeah Windows is that stupid) thus self executing the virus, which then infects the host machine.

In recent times Microsoft has asked users to disable Autorun, although not released as a patch, You need to download TweakUI to do so. Windows 7 however disables Autorun for removable drives by default.

The next hurdle is the quality of virus themselves. They have grown so wild, are known by a million names, thus making it almost impossible for even the most advanced Anti-Virus to catch them. I ll explain this best with my personal example, something that happened just a week ago. I borrowed a friends hard drive to install a game. At that time i was testing Panda CloudAV. As soon as i plugged in the HD, Win32/Sality (ah you wile sonofabtch) infected my PC. And before i knew it, half my EXE’s were already infected. For those who dont know Win32/Sality..well its a rampant exe affecting virus which is very hard to remove. Spent 2 sleepless nights trying to manually remove it and did succeed to a great extent (sans few registry entries and corrupt drivers). I tired all Anti Malware (Malwarebytes, SuperAntiSpyware, Spyware Doctor), AntiVirus products, the free ones though, none of them could repair it. They only offered to Quarantine or delete the legitimate EXE files which were infected. Manual removal : here here
Also helped was the forums at Majorgeeks. So after the virus was partially removed,i thought i should invest in a premium licensed copy of a AntiVirus. Although i have always used Avira Free AV, i was intrigued by eScan’s malware detection scores. So i went for it(i had not slept for a day and half) The next day, the guy running the server offers me McAfee saying it will get rid of Sality. I was surprised, but later realised it was a corporate trial. Ran the scan it didnt detect anything. So i uninstalled that and then installed my bought copy of eScan. The website link was of an older version, so had to hunt around for the latest version, which i got it on the eScan Wiki. Very disappointed at the somewhat armature approach of eScan. Ran that scan too, again no detection. So finally safe!

To test now, i took my pendrive and plugged into a friend’s machine which has a trojan thriving happily. Plugged it back in my computer, hoping escan will auto scan the removable drive. It did not. Only corporate edition does that. Shit Not feeling too bad i ran the on demand scanner. It found nothing ! Oh my god! Fired up command prompt and did did a directory listing
F:\ dir /a /s
Aha, the exe is siting there smug! Baffled i ran more scanners on it. Nothing. I tried to copy that exe and rename it and then test it individually , couldn’t do that. Not even via command prompt, its like that file does not exist! Most AntiVirus couldn’t determine the contents of the exe and just skip it. I then pulled out my Laptop, which is running Ubuntu 9.10. Plugged in my removable drive, whistled whilst i copied the “system hidden” exe’s (sitting ducks on Linux!) on to a another Removable drive and renamed it. Before plugging it back, I intalled Panda’s USB Vaccine on the Windows workstation. Then plugged the USB drive in it. Hmm no Autorun, good. Navigated to the folder, Aha! The virus folder exits, seemingly empty but i know what lurks there! Again ran a dir command to confirm. Yep it was there! Then i ran a online scanner (Virus Total and DrWeb) on the exe file. It got deed by DrWeb and 4 out of 41 AV on VirusTotal. Wow. Pevex detected it as High Risk Cloaked Malware. The others which detected it were Microsoft, Prevex, Sohpos and Nod32. Guess i should have bought Prevex instead of eScan (almost the same cost). Sure eScan is good but it wont remove the ever persistent Malware which is on every machine in the Lab. Well guess there is just one way to fix this problem – before inssetig any Removable Device, just plug it to my netbook, navigate via Linux, handpick the smug Malware, and Shift+delete! Poof!
Oh did i mention, i am a Linux user

(will add pictures soon, keep checking this page, as of now, my eyes wont stay open any longer)